Wher you were around

I remember the day when I first held you in my arms,
You were so small, so fragile,
And when your brown eyes met mine,
I knew I would always love you,
Because you were mine
Ten years later and your daddy walked out on us,
I tried to be strong for you,
But I should have known I couldn’t fool you
You found me sobbing in my room one night,
And you wrapped your arms around me and whispered:
“It’s time to stop crying now; I’ll take care of you,”
And just like that my heart was whole again,
For I knew I’d always have you, my boy,
Because you were mine
Ten years later and the cancer was back,
The doctors assured me you wouldn’t make it,
But I couldn’t bring myself to accept it,
You were a part of me after all.
Your skin became ashen,
Your bones…protrusions beneath your skin,
I realized then that I wouldn’t always have you.
Three months later you died in my arms,
Your face looked so serene…
No more pain, no more suffering,
I felt empty.
For a long time I cried myself to sleep,
But one gloomy day I felt your presence,
You held me in a warm embrace and whispered:
“It’s time to stop crying now; I’ll take care of you”
And just like the first time, my heart was whole.

 

Alice Mugo